“I’m Sorry….”
These two words seemed to say everything that needed to be
said. But they weren’t…..were they? The first question of the many that seem to
float around in the brain. There needed to be an explanation. But this seemed
to be short, simple, and straight to the point. The way it needed to be. Still
the thought remains…should I explain? But how can there be an explanation when
there isn’t an understanding of what happened? Where did things go wrong? Why
did things go wrong? Where and with whom does the blame lie? Perhaps an
explanation was needed.
“I’m Sorry…”
Could an apology fix the problem or were they forever
broken? The possibility had never occurred. Why think they could be fixed?
Because there was an apology? What if it’s not enough?
Sorry doesn’t fix it. It only opens the floor for
discussion. Discussion could lead to arguing. Arguing could lead to leaving,
and leaving resolves nothing. Leaving makes the cracks bigger. The cracks will
only grow bigger until everything shatters. There will be no picking up the
pieces then. There would be no apologies, no explanations, nothing. Just the
shattered pieces of what once was. The unfixable, beyond repair.
Could “I’m Sorry…” fix the problem? Could it be talked out?
Not knowing is the worst part. To go for it. Putting your all on the line.
Taking the great leap of faith, not knowing if someone is waiting on the other
side or if you’re going to fall flat on your face. Maybe it’s worth a shot….
But would there be a response? If so what would it be? I’m
sorry too? I forgive you? Can we talk?
What if there was no
response at all? Panic begins to set in.
Funny how this one little phrase, two little words could
spark so many internal questions. Is it worth fighting for? Are you worth
fighting for? It always seems that apologies could fix problems, could it fix
this one? What if you aren’t worth it?
To say or not to say? That is the question. Oh how this one
little phrase could spark such the great debate. How should it be said? Calling
was out of the question. It’s hard enough to put your mind in the right place
now, how could you even attempt to say the words out loud? Text? Email?
Handwritten letter? This should seem really personal, genuine and sincere.
“I’m Sorry….”
The room is spinning. Heart is pounding. Panic attack? Be
calm, it’s just an apology.
NO! THIS IS THE APOLOGY. This could break everything or fix
everything. But is this where to begin?
I like how you captured everything that runs through someone's mind during an argument. Sometimes "I'm sorry," only makes things worse and other times it's just not enough to satisfy the other person. I like your last line as well. "But is this where to begin?" It seems like the act of apologizing requires some preemptive action or discussion.
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